I've been said that I'm hot, but I'm absolutely retarded as hell?

Just stay the way you are. I'm bi so i know how hard it can be to be mocked on. I know you have probably heard this a million times but if you want people to accept you, you better accept yourself. I was really like you, until i started accepting and loving myself. being selfish (in a small dose) may be a good thing. And i went off topic. You dont need to grow or develop anything. you're just like that. and idk you but im pretty sure you're not retarded.